The other side of me

He often appears in my dreams, even in the daytime, his appearance will suddenly appear in my mind, and what bothers me most is that every time I think of that man, my lower body will react, which is very strange, as if – as if I wish something came in – Oh! I can’t go on. When did I become like this? It’s really lewd. And every time I think of this man, my heart will be pounding faster, my breath will become too fast, and my face will be hot, as if that man invaded me that night.